the e word

my dot and i went to a leader rally this morning at church. we looked at the church's direction for the next year or so and about hopping on board this i am second movement. it pretty much boils down to the 'e' word.

people don't like the word evangelism. it drums up all kinds of negative images and connotations. but the truth of the matter is, it isn't going away and it continues to remain our call as christians. but it isn't about religion and it isn't about force feeding anything to anyone. it's about being Jesus to those that need Him. it's about people and relationships and hurts that need healing and hearts that need love. it's about doing what Jesus did and is still all about.

i love that my church desire to do just that. it makes me proud to be a part of such an incredible group of people.

i hope and pray God provides me opportunities to share my story with other people and tell them why i am no longer first in my life. i want people to know the grace i have experienced and let them know it is there for them as well. i want to live for the God who loved me and saved me and is deserving of all praise. i just.. well i just want to love God with every thing i am and give my life back to Him to use however He sees fit.

quiet

yesterday around noon dot and my brother left for a men's retreat. so i ended up with the house to myself this weekend. i am enjoying several things about this:
1) it is deliciously quiet
2) i slept in the middle of the bed, at a diagonal
3) no snory bear (refer back to #1)
4) i can blog without someone reading over my shoulder
5) the only messes i have to clean up are my own, ergo i am not cleaning up any messes!
6) it is deliciously quiet

about number 4... i have noticed that i get irritated when someone tries to read over my shoulder. and i could be reading an ingredients list on a jar of spaghetti but it will still get to me. it's not that i don't want someone to see what i am seeing - the content is not the point, it's the act of intrusion.

there have been several times where i've intended to blog.. even signed in to blogger, but then someone hangs over me watchin' my screen and i just can't do it. and the funny thing about it is that whatever i end up putting out here is open for all eyes to see. i guess the difference is that they aren't viewing it over my shoulder.

this has always bothered me. i wonder how much of this is a valid complaint or if it is just me being a pill. i'm entirely open to the fact that it could just be me.

at any rate, i am here and blogging and the only eyes on the page are my own. it is a satisfying feeling.

[for those of you wondering, no jon is not the perpetrator. i've already broken him of that habit. haha. j/k.]

i'm about to brew a cup of coffee and settle in for some bible study. then run a few errands and possible lunch at le madeleine. their tomato basil soup is fabulous! then i'll probably knit or read until life group tonight.

a leisurely day. no work. in fact, i have forbidden myself from working (which may be another factor contributing to me actually being on blogger than elsewhere). it's hard. i know of several things that need to be done. but... i require the down time. i've been working many evenings and every weekend for several weeks now and i'm feeling it.

alrighty then. i'm coffee bound.