walking pneumonia

i went to the doctor today after having a cough for 17 days and i found out i have walking pneumonia. well, that's a first. but i knew it had to be something, afterall i was just so rundown and felt kinda like a weakling for taking it easy when i didn't seem to have a fever or 'sick head'. you know 'sick head' - when you feel lousy and can't focus and stuff. i always feel like if my head is clear i should be working and going about things as usual. but, uh.. i guess that isn't the case.

so finding this news out kinda confirms for me that i wasn't feeling rundown for nothing. it is almost good news in a retarded kind of way.

jon was wondering if i was still going out with the friday doSomethings and i told him i'd better not. (i've googled walking pneumonia and found out it's contagious, and i'm supposed to be getting plenty of rest. by the way, i hate that phrase.) he sounded pretty disappointed which makes me feel like "i disappointed him".

truth was, though, that he was wanting to get me a birthday cake for the evening. aw.. so sweet. but i just really don't feel up to it. still. and yet, i still feel like i've disappointed him and everyone. i can't just let myself not be well. and now i think i know why. i don't like to disappoint.

and that's all i'm gonna say. because i've got some resting to do. heh.