the stirring

tonight's conf kickoff was awesome!

we are doing a series on joshua at our church right now and about 2 weeks ago our pastor spoke of rahab. he talked about how joshua sent only two spies to scope out the scene, they met up with rahab, she was faithful to a God she didn't really know, and as a result her life and her family were spared certain death.

this book, called joshua, holds a story that isn't even about him as the name of it might suggest. nor is it about the israelites. or the land. or the city of jericho. it is about one, sinful prostitute.

God made certain events occur so that she might have life in Him. two warriors found themselves in the middle of God's plan to save rahab's life. the story is all about her. God cares that much!.. for her!

and for me.

tonight milton carroll, our keynote speaker, said something that pierced my heart. he said God loves me. just as i am. not who i'm supposed to be. and i choked on tears.

i was sitting in the tech booth, running lyrics and videos, but was at a point in the conf where i didn't have any responsibilities, so i went down to the front and knelt before my God and simply drank in His presence. i laid a bunch of junk down there, too. like pride. and doubt. and stress. and i felt so renewed and refreshed.

and i thanked God for putting together this whole conference. for me. so i could have that one moment with Him. i don't doubt for a single minute that He counts that as so important that He would fashion a conference around it. He would do it for me. and He would do it for you.

because He loves you. just as you are. not who you are supposed to be.

and can i just say... DOOD!

thank you for being big. and for loving me. and for the empty tomb.

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milton carroll's church has the stirring, a church experience very similar but on a way bigger and advanced scale than REVO. i told my boss i think we outta take a field trip out there to experience it. she said that's in the works!